Whenever I look at pictures of countries outside of the United States, I always imagine myself being there. Seeing the children living there, interacting with the people, I can see myself living with them. Learning their language, connecting with the people, helping them; this is what I really want to do in the future. Still learning a lot about myself in college, it takes quite some time to mature to the man I want to be. The same sins that I struggle with keep coming back, and at times I feel like the fool who forgets his image right after looking in the mirror. Yet, even through all these things, I am so thankful that I am grounded fully in God and that Jesus’ blood covers over all my sins. Even if I’m not “mature” enough, Jesus’ blood is surely enough for me.
This desire
Genesis 37
Jacob tore his clothes: This was an expression of utter horror and mourning because his loved son is gone. His grief is understandable, but his failure to see the truth of eternal life is not.
This is also a powerful illustration of the principle that if we believe something to be so, it may as well be. Joseph was not dead, but as long as Jacob believed he was, as far as Jacob was concerned, Joseph was dead. In the same way, the Christian has in truth been set free from sin, but if Satan can persuade us we are under the tyranny of sin, we may as well be.
Love my English Class
In class we are just talking about our memories. Such a chill class.
Spring Semester
I am so excited for this semester. I keep getting this feeling that I will be really focused and effective throughout the weeks to come. Doing Bible study with Nathan and Phil through the semester will be awesome. So far it’s going great and I’m learning so much through Genesis and Daniel. Every day my hope is that I would go to God first for everything I do. This semester, I’m going to only concentrate on God and school. I am going to be a man of ACTION this semester.
2012
My resolution for 2012: Falling into deeper love with God.
Family
I am too selfish. Recently, I have been experiencing episodes of love from my mom. I experience this all the time, but these days I’ve been noticing how much time and patience it takes to love me. When she said, “I’m doing this for you” to me, I realized how greedy I really am. “You’re doing this for me?” Why? Stop doing that for me! I can handle everything by myself! Then I realize the extent of how much she loves me. My mom loves me that much to take her time off to tend to my little needs. It took me some time to reason why she would do that. It is because I am her son. Her very blood runs through my veins and she wants the very best for me. When I started to realize these things I started to cry. I’m not a crybaby, but all those times I’ve neglected her when she tries SO hard for me hit me really hard. I can’t believe I was such a jerk to her. I wasn’t even worthy to be called a son, yet she cherished every moment she was with me. Through my mom’s love to me, I am starting to see God’s love as well. How much more does he love me more than my mom? You can’t even compare! That’s the kind of love my heavenly father gives me. He wants me to know that I am loved DEARLY. He wants me to recognize that my identity is his LOVE. With such a great father sitting on the throne, I can say I have the best family. Thank God!
DONE WITH FINALS!!!
I’m finally done with finals!!! Thank you God for blessing me with peace during this time. Thank you ODPC for giving me that care package. The Bible verses carried me through testing. I am definitely super blessed.
Break Every Chain
His peace and goodness
God has been so good to me. He has given me peace even though it is finals week. I am constantly in awe of his wonder.
Gaining understanding through Proverbs
I started to read a chapter of Proverbs each day and I started to understand more clearly what God wants of me. He doesn’t say “Be Lazy!” or “Sleep all day and play all night!” Rather he is discontented with the lazy and abhors those who are prideful. As a college student it’s really hard to not be lazy. God is taking me through Proverbs at such a time in my life to show me that I can’t live the way i’m living now.
